Bipolar Dream Girl

Sometimes I think my dream self is bipolar. I have this really odd thing that happens regularly in my dreams and it always freaks me out a little bit. I guess maybe it's just a way of dealing with stress but eeww. I go insane in my dreams sometimes. If something doesn't go my way I always completely flip out and begin screaming and throwing things and berating people. Sometimes I even hurt people. It's kind of scary because I wonder if I might somehow be capable of acting this way in waking life.

Last night I had a dream that my mom and I were shopping in a Spencer's type store for little gifts for our husbands for valentines day. My mom found two little gift boxes with chocolates and massage oils. She said "let's get one for your Hubby and one for my Husband." I soon realized she meant to give both of them the gift boxes from her. I flipped out because I assumed she was being nice and paying for my gift to Hubby, not that she wanted to give Hubby some massage oils. I started screaming about how upset I was that she wanted to give him those things. I started throwing shot glasses at her and breaking them all over the floor. I did something to her that made her unconscious. After sitting under a display somewhere and still being freaked out I calmed down and started crying uncontrollably. I went over and woke my mom up and got into the fetal position on the floor and cried until I couldn't cry any more I begged her forgiveness and in general just felt like a piece of shit.

It was the most horrible dream, and it was so realistic. The thing is, this is not the first time I've had a dream like this. It happens every six months to every few months. I don't know why I dream these things, and it bothers me. It makes me feel weird that my mind is capable of thinking these things, and it really weirds me out that I can see myself in the dream. Sometimes I'll think I'm dreaming about myself, but really when I see me I'm someone else. In these dreams it's always very clear that I am the person freaking out. I guess I'll take solace in the fact that I would never act that way awake.