Why can't I be cuter, and sexier, and more fun? That's all I want. Sometimes I look at all these cute, faux tanned, makeup wearing, long hair wearing girls and I just want to be one of them. They're so confident, and so cute, and they wear these adorable, stylish clothes that don't make them look 30. I want to be that. Ugh!!! When we went shopping the other day my mom, yeah that's right folks, my mom!!! told me I dress too old for my age. She said she'd love to see me dress cuter and show off my body since eventually I'll get older and won't have it anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore. My therapist was no help. Maybe I need to start reading my Sark books again, I remember them helping me about 5 years ago. I just miss feeling good about myself and having confidence. I know one thing is for sure, I'm going to let my hair grow back out. It is such a pain in the ass to not be able to just get up and go. I have to wash and do my hair before I leave the house, because if I don't I have a greasy mohawk. I just want to feel happy and good, is that so much to ask??
It's kind of insane when I think about it how I really shouldn't be unhappy with myself. Where did I learn to hate my looks and think I'm not good enough? I'm 23 years old and I think like this. Imagine what millions of teenage girls are feeling. I'm sick of it and I wish there was a way to make it go away for everyone! I guess this is a start
*Remember rant about hypocritical friend (criminals)
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