Suck

The new job search kind of blows. I've decided on a job in "corporate america" and I thought I had a damn good job all lined up and ready to go, and then it disappeared. I'm trying for a few others, but I am suddenly not very optimistic. I know as the wise people say, things happen and fall into place all for certain reasons, but I don't want to be at the hands of the gods. I am doing my part to work for it, so is J, why can't the universe reciprocate? Does the universe not know that this corporate job is just a stepping stone to build up money so I can study massage therapy? I have bigger goals and ambitions, but right now I'll settle for being an administrative assistant or meeting coordinator making a decent $40 to $45K a year.

please?