The Impossibly Great Year

It's been 3 months since I last posted. No wonder no one reads my blog. That, and it's boring as hell. So, tomorrow will be a year with J, and I still feel the same way I did 3 months ago. Life with him is amazing. I find a new reason to love him every day. Today we ran errands together and had a blast just being silly. We ordered a palm tree to plant in the yard as a symbol of our love and we're going to watch it grow, like our relationship. It sounds cheesy when I write it, but I love the idea. It had to be a palm. I'm a California girl. He spent the last 5 years in Florida before moving here to the south. We have set a goal to eventually make our permanent home somewhere that we can take trips to the beach any weekend we want. We are making plans like that because we are permanent.



We talked a lot this weekend. We are getting married. No solid date. No proposal. Just the knowledge that we are going to spend the rest of our lives together, and we'll formally commit to that in the next 4 years. We also want to have a kid. Not soon, but someday. I have never wanted to have someone's child the way I want to have J's baby. I thought I wanted to have ex-hubby's baby at one point, but that quickly faded. J has never wanted a woman to have his child, period.

I think we'd be great parents who could provide a really stable and loving environment for a child. We have so much love between the two of us and I know that would be passed on to our baby. I am so excited about the prospect of what the future holds. I have never been so happy. I have never felt so secure, and sure. I have never trusted anyone the way I trust J. Every day, almost the whole day I just think about how happy I am with my life, and how lucky I am to have what I have wanted all along.