Anger Settles In

Today has been an angry day. I am so mad at Hubby. I was thinking about the fact that I am so hurt because when I stood up in front of all of our family and friends and said I would love Hubby forever, and that we would always be together as a team, I meant it with every atom of my heart and soul. Somehow when he stood up there, I don't think he meant it as much as I did. If he did, we wouldn't be going through this. If he really meant it, he wouldn't have emailed other women. He wouldn't have used Lacey's name as his password to search for apartments for me, he wouldn't have written a love song for Lacey. If he had really meant it, he wouldn't have made a fool of me and taken my promise and love so lightly.

Instead, he threw it all away, he didn't realize the preciousness of the gift I gave him that day. I promised to bind my life with his for the rest of our days on this Earth and whatever may come after. He promised the same thing, but I wonder if he had his fingers crossed, because he certainly didn't live up to his end of the promise.