Forward Progress

I applied for and was approved for my first apartment on Thursday. I'm so excited about the fact that I qualified for it all on my own. I ended up leasing the one that I wrote about in the previous entry. I should be moving in next Saturday. I went out and bought some new dishes and glasses for my new place. I also got a few decorations. Hopefully by the end of this week I'll have my new futon for the living room along with a coffee table and an end table.

This still all seems so weird and surreal. I can't believe that I'm getting divorced from Hubby. Sometimes I think that this is something that will be so good for my life, but sometimes I feel like maybe I'm making the biggest mistake of my life. I still love and am in love with Hubby, but I just don't think we're good for each other. I miss him a lot though. I went to the house this morning to pick up some things and we hung out for a minute. I wish he weren't such a likable guy. I told him that I am really seeing his idea that we can be friends. I think it would be quite a while from now, but I like him as a person and he's a fun guy. I'm just not sure if I could ever hang out with him as a friend and not remember all of the memories we have as a couple. I guess only time will tell.

I'm going out to dinner with my friend Sunny tonight to get my mind off of things. We were supposed to be going out in a local college town tonight, but her in-laws came into town early and she has to spend time with them. We made plans to go out and shake our booties another night. I know it is going to take a while, but I'm just so ready to feel OK again.